Everyone Alive

so i haven't felt a need to write on this for over a year and i'm not so sure i do now. this will probably not make it through to the update status but who knows, i haven't gone this far in that time. not that it's a big deal if i do, i found myself here though. i'm much older now and hate the heat more. i'm getting married - who isn't? i've figured out that i'm probably not going to write the next great american novel. i still like to kid myself that someday i'll go to grad school. do i want to teach college classes? kristen and i are so close and yet i feel like leslie gets the wrong impression. it's complicated to talk about here because probably the only one who might read this is leslie, if she has me on her friends page. there is also that goth girl who posted that one time. i want her to be happy for me, not that she definitely isn't. it's just there as a maybe. for some reason i checked my mail today thinking that mark would have written me. yeah, i should probably just email him but the idea of it seems off. there's a good chance that we never talk to each other face to face, on the phone again after being basically best friends. i visited leslie in california. that was a big thing. krissy and i went to chicago and it was perfect. we have been in wyoming for 9 months and i'm happy. it's weird how they just decided at the last minute where we would be. erin and dave, who will be longtime friends, wouldn't be. i think i'm a little too eased in here. i want to go on an adventure and yet i don't. i had all last week off as a break from work and the first thing i thought was that i was going to call chris and go down there and then i did nothing, i didn't even call him to see if he was busy. i wish jamie would come and visit and i would get to hang out with her once even if it was a forced visit just to stop in while i was watching mcguyver while i was sick. i haven't been able to write anything since i graduated. i'm not all that mad about it either. i have a feeling that comming up there is going to be a time where i just can't stop. our apartment is way too hot. i'm clicking the update button for you sebby.

and we're back. i started a poem a couple of days ago and realized that i'm going to have to keep writing all the time. it had been about two months of no writing, i just needed a rest from it after school. i'll read jab by mark halliday today i think. anyways, it's an exciting time around these parts. a bunch of cds come out on the 6th like kweller and modest mouse. oh yeah, that other disc comes out that day too. i'll be in chicago ill to buy it. hopefully the ticket info for this fritz's corner show will come out soon and we will get tickets. the metro is going to be awesome and my two girls will be there with me. i really can't wait to hang out with ljo. it was weird that i just saw her like four days ago. so yeah, i've got to get this trip together so she/i/krissy can start getting happy about it. also exciting: march madness.

Current Mood: cynical
Current Music: Rilo Kiley - The Execution of All Things

kristen is at the glammys in california. it felt good to watch forever eden or whatever the name of that show was with leslie over the phone. so i guess the vacation that i'm trying to plan to chicago and michigan isn't going to work no matter what i do. every band i like is breaking up. hmm, i was going to write in here but now i'm just tired.

Current Mood: hot
Current Music: Ash - Free All Angels

things are starting to come together. hahaha, sorry, i just thought it would be funny if i started my entry with a statement like that. i feel bad because i told krissy i would clean the store with her this morning before it opened if we didn't have to do it last night and then this morning i was really really sick. i almost threw up every time i moved. so now i have the whole day off (my boss is nice) and i'm just sitting around here being sick. i remember one time i was sick when i was little and at some weird lady's house. i think she was our babysitter at the time or something and i watched jaws for the first time. i'm excited that leslie, and possibly others, might come out here for her spring break. then, in april, i think krissy and i are going out to chicago and then to michigan. like i said, things are starting to come together.

Current Mood: nauseated
Current Music: Zelda music from in the living room

so i work at glamour shots now selling pictures. it's actually kinda fun. i'm so excited about local h. today the web site was updated and with new dates and i guess the tour is starting off in zion at fritz's corner. WOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i move away and they play there and at the metro again. i think i need to plan a trip. they're also playing vermont which seems like it would be close but i guess there is no highway that goes there so it would take like 5 hours according to yahoo. i want to go to the movies tomorrow. there is a live bunny at glamour shots for kids to take their picture with and her name is miss elliot.

warning, oscar talk ahead. meesa (what else could start off oscar talk other than a meesa?) got done watching lost in translation and now i really don't know what my vote will go for on oscar night. i thought it had no chance for my vote but now....now. it was between rotk (real fans use initials)and mystic river (mr....uh wait, that's already taken). i was torn because i don't know if lord should win being part just part of something you know. now mr. lit and the king have a chance.

speaking of local h, i'm getting very excited about april 6 because i guess the new album has been "leaked" to the internet and people on the message board are sharing thoughts on it. it's like 2 months!!! i love the extra guitar part for how's the weather on this show.

i've got my car back.

Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Local H 12.31.03 Chicago, IL

due to the fact that my car no longer starts i think i'll stay in today. a band, any band, needs to get some tour dates up. i don't care if they are in april. maybe today i'll write the modern epic, i mean i was up at 9:30. then again i'm not blind...dang. maybe i'll listen to like 15 cds. i wish leslie and i would have had our 24 hours of music. i haven't given up hope though. ok superdrag, the jokes over, it's time to get back together.

Current Mood: lazy
Current Music: Superdrag - In the Valley of Dying Stars

CABLE GUY. actually, there were two of them and they kept saying dude to each other. one was an older man. i can't even really remember how they said dude but i couldn't believe it, like totally forcing it at times. the stuff they hooked up is dynamite.....is that really how you spell that? hmmmm. yeah, anyways, i was excited to see that we get mtv2, although i've heard it has gone downhill lately too. also, i get all the celtics games! maybe i can learn to hate them as much as the pistons....actually, probably, no, rick mahorn. i'm off to secretly get a cd player installed in krissy's car for her birthday. JAMIE DON'T FORGET TO WATCH THE OC TONIGHT. last week i barely saw it. the screen was so fuzzy you could hardly tell what was going on and the cord kept falling out of the back and i had to hook it up 3 or 4 times, missing vital dialogue. catch yall peeps lata.

Current Mood: complacent

due to an overwhelming number of e-mails requesting my return i have decided to come back to live journal. plus, since i just basically sit around every day i'll have plenty to talk about. yesterday krissy had her first day off in awhile. we managed to get an estimate on her car, eat at subway, go to this cd store that was very impressive like they had tons of cds and a section for local h, new copies of the no fun ep, hctz, putc and agad. they even had a section for triple3fastaction! ok, back to the list of stuff we did...pretend we are back up there...went to a cd store, drove to wilmington mass, got the alignment on her car done, saw return of the king, went to newbury comics, met her parents at texas roadhouse for dinner and then drove back up here. also, we heard nada surf inside of love on the radio. for some reason the dj was obsessed with it. he mentioned that he was going to play it at least 5 times before he actually did. he made everyone wait for it. i haven't been up to much. thank g dog leslie talked me into wanting lotr the ps2 game, it is really fun. some of the stages are amazing. we're about half-way through season 2 of family guy, that takes up quite a bit of time.

Current Mood: thirsty
Current Music: Local H - Hello

hello faithful readers (leslie),
i'm sorry to announce that this will be my last journal entry. it was a stretch when just jamie and leslie read it and mark occasionally but now it seems kinda pointless. jamie deleted hers and mark never updates sooooooo....... leslie thank you for reading my journal and i will continue to read yours and comment on yours. to you journal, it has been a great run and we have shed a few tears and drinked a few dranks.

i'm off to Local H and i'm so ummm...ecstatic. wax ecstatic. i hope ljo has fun this weekend too at her party. i'm excited to see mr. maurer today, he needs to get up here more or i need to go visit him or something. i have no clothes clean. as opposed to clean clothes. i have a boat load of work due next week that i'm not looking forward to. oh well, as long as i get to local h on time and see the whole show tonight i'll do any amount of work. oh yeah, i was going to make chris a cd of local h stuff. yeah, i've gotta do that, sorry journal junkies.

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Local H - 8/1/03 (to be exact: Fuck Yeah, That Wide)

ok, leslie gave me permission to get excited about local h friday and i am now doing that. i'm like super pumped, especially after the august 1st disaster and everything that's building up to this show. i just really wish leslie felt comfy going because i want her there. being sick hasn't gotten me off to a good start this semester, but yeah, it's the last one so i need to get on track. tomorrow i have to give a presentation on "the end of the affair" by graham greene and i'm kind of pretending it (the presenation not the book) doesn't exist. the book was actually pretty good, although i thought it could have been better. greene himself (sorry just wanted to write that) said he rushed the ending and i felt that too even before i read that quote. anyone heard dashboard's cover of weezer's jamie?

Current Mood: geeky
Current Music: Watch That Girl - Sullen

i haven't updated in a couple of days because i went to maine to see a certain girl. it really sucks that i might not see her again until i move out there in december...i'm not looking forward to that. we went to superdrag's last show, or at least their last show for some time and it was a rockin' good time. then i got sick. yesterday i missed my classes, i had the worst headache i think i've ever had. then today i went to spanish and had a really hard time getting through it because i was coughing, couldn't see (my glasses have conveniently broken a few weeks ago), snuffing snot, and covered in sweat. i got so hot, it was sick. i'm not sure if i'm going to my next class cause that last one was horrible. leslie and i had a lot of fun watching passions last night, when don't we? anyways, yeah, i don't feel that good. waaa waaa.

Current Mood: hot
Current Music: Nada Surf - Let Go

when life throws you apples, make them into lemonade. i like life right now, there is just something about it. for example, passions was on today. that is something i forgot to write about in my summary of this summer, all the great moments in passions. like hastings in that hotel room and grace saying, "david, you're a drug addict." and charlie chomping on that snack in beth's living room. and, of course, hollywood. for those readers not obsessed with passions you can now start reading again. i go see krissy thursday. i can't wait, it seems like it has been a really long time since i've seen her. we are going to see what may be superdrag's last show in boston. it's amazing because i didn't think i would be seeing them for a really long time. they are making a dvd of the show. leslie and i are in the cooler heads video. i didn't really do anything today.........i mean except writing the next great american novel, of course. ahhh yes, the great american novel. NO NEW JAIL!

Current Mood: recumbent
Current Music: Hail to the Victors

summer:
-i worked
-leslie and i came up with some great new sayings and had times like only we can.
-i saw krissy only once.
-i saw local h at the double door and it was one of the best.
-i saw local h at schubas and it was not one of the best because i got stuck in traffic and only saw the last four songs. hearing high fiven mf blasting through the town of chicago (it was outside) while driving around in my car was quite the experience though.
-i got to hear my dad say, "well, fuck you." to a guy at work, there's a good chance i'll never forget that.
-ben lee twice.
-nada surf.
-hulk. leslie with her "patch" and i with my "patch," lets see if anyone gets that.
-a family trip that was, um, how do i be nice?.....good-intentioned.
-haha, writting out those questions on the way home from that trip.
-mom blowing me a kiss at the hotel on that trip.
-chris, especially cao cao, walking up to some alleyway in chicago and finding him watching local h and then how happy/relieved he was that i made it, seinfield and individual pizzas.
-i cleaned the building with leslie. we act crazy in there.......only in there.......
-playing final fantasy with leslie, remember borris flying accross the screen?
-i stayed over at kurt's house. oh my god, kurt is married.
that's about it. yes, i'm out of the list now and am just writing. i played a few games of nba live and i might have booted up sims a couple of times but other than that i can't think of too much more. leslie bought me the hours dvd, which was really nice of her. she pretty much tried to make me happy all summer, which was even nicer of her. the internet is much slower at my house, like 1990s fast, so i didn't go online much. here's what a typical post that would have surfaced over the summer would have been like:

"it's hot today because it's july 31st. i had to work today because it is the summer and i'm not back in school yet. man, this internet connection is slow, not anything like pipeline GOLD, that would be so nice to use right now. i wonder what my room, that will exist later, in a few months, will look like? i hope we get an apartment. we need to get an apartment to live in once school starts and we don't have this house my parents own to live in. that's all for today, july 31st, talk to you all later, maybe on like august 1st. wait, i'll be at local h tomorrow, august 1st, so probably not. i really hope the traffic isn't so bad tomorrow that i go 4 miles in 3 hours. ok, wish me luck tomorrow, august 1st 2003."

yeah, well, um, i think it might be time for me to go now because it's almost 7. we got a regular count dracula over here.

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Current Mood: uncomfortable
Current Music: Last Stop This Town (In the old head)

it was a very tight race for my current mood between "hungry" and "dirty." hey leslie if i was going to put down the weirdest thing today it would be something dad just said on the phone. i'll tell you about it when you get out of the shower in a couple of minutes. anyways, he said something along the lines of "well, hes got a plan for you up there." ok, you are out of the shower so i'm going to hop in. goodbye all.

Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: The Anniversary - Designing a Nervous Breakdown

yes i know, this seems forced. things are messed up. maybe not messed up but definately confusing. i don't know where i'm going to live or what i'm going to do and i'm graduating really soon, next semester. maine would be a fun place to live right? this semester has somehow been a big mess and i don't even know how i got so behind. i have no job for the summer and i want it to be good. on the other hand things have been going good. krissy is comming in four days. how shall i keep her here? i wish i had another time to get my story critiqued. yes that's right, i want more work and that's not even an empty statement. maybe i'll listen to music all night. i wish there were no ants. i think i just decided to go to graduate school. breaking news.

Current Mood: rushed
Current Music: The Fullerenes - Temporary Boyfriend EP

it's a decent sauce ma.

yesterday was extremely great, today extremely not great. i've been super out of it today in every way. this paper i have to write is becomming really hard. like leslie said and i said she was wrong (um why, i don't know..), "it's hard to concentrate." maybe i should get up tomorrow really early and do it but then again i'm not too good at that. yesterday was just amazing, we went to see a band called local h in chicago and it doesn't even seem that real to me. hey, i've already written more for my journal then i have for my paper. this is not getting done tonight. i will get up tomorrow. you got the money, we got the soul.

Current Mood: sore
Current Music: Cooler Heads - Local H